i want a hug

Little things along the way never ceases to remind me how much things have changed.
where have we disappeared to? the me and you, that tells each other everything. 
they're gone now. there seems to be this barrier that formed without me noticing.
has things really changed so much? from friends that tell each other basically everything, to friends that talk without anything serious going on.
have we become so estranged from each other. maybe it's you, maybe it's me who has drifted away.
but now things show so clearly that perhaps you dont wanna tell me anything anymore, brushing it off lightly.

i wish you'd talk to me, tell me things even though i may not have the solution nor the things you would want to hear.
i know there're somethings, that we might not agree on. but i'll still wish you'd talk to me.

 i'll tell you a secret:

i know you lied but you dont know that i know.
and i make no plans to ask you about it.
maybe one day you'll confess.
i'll be waiting (:

On somedays, i just want a hug. with no questions asked. 
From someone who'd just hold me tight, to make all the bad feelings and untold worries go away.

well, at least for awhile.

 i came home last night, checked my mail.

lo, and behold! i have twitter. 
(although, not of thy's willing creation )
i wonder who created it, have a tad few suspects.
but none are owning up. yay

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rach owned up!
haa, i knew it (:

 i. need. to. stop. thinking. about. stuff.
(:

not that i'd really want to. but it kinda makes me unable to sleep at night.
reading book after book has only made me lean towards the side that i dont wanna be.
dont get me wrong, i love books.
i'll choose books over love♥ anytime, anyday. (:
give me a great book and i'll ditch you for that very book under my covers anyday. heh

waiting for the time traveller's wife on thurs ♥
cant wait to read the book, even. 
i think im gonna hop over to the library soon enough.
and stock myself up with books to last me at least 3 days(hopefully).
ebooks can do the same, but staring at the screen makes my eyes really tired. ><

okay, books books books.♥
i cant be bothered anymore by what thoughts that consume me thereafter.
and im sorry for thinking about things. 
lets say i'd never want to go back there anymore.but who would know?

sooo, burst my little bubble. wont you?

Many a times i wondered
About the many things that plagued my very sanity
Some i have come to a closure, a conclusion
Some, i left abandoned to roam the very ends of my mind
Only for it to come back to haunt me once again
Right now, im too exhausted. to entertain thoughts of this kind.
Or maybe im just in denial. hah, who would know?

Forgive me, I'm trying to find
My calling, I'm calling at night
I don't mean to be a bother,
But have you seen this girl?

hi. i opened this page.
but i forgot what i wanted to say.
sooo,

kthxbye.

there is still no stars in the night sky today.

today, someone impt to me, told me something.
something i never ever knew about myself.
denial maybe, but i really never realised that i've been doing that till you said it.

and now, im wondering. a lil too much.
about things that have happend, or things to come.
should i change? or should i remain this way, and fear all the things that may happen.

i took a long slow walk home, leaving sch slightly past 9.
i thought reallll hard, reaaaal long about this.
but honestly, do i really?
but yet, i agree that there were some incidences.
if you were me, would you have reacted differently?

now that i do know, that somehow i do happen to do things that way.
now i dont know what i should do.

it's finally friday!
although my week's been pretty short.
but it sure is tiring! being away from sch has really made the schwork alot alot heavier =/

i really really cant wait for tmr (:
very excited, yet kinda scared. D:

OHOH, i am very happy that marketing interview#2 is over!
was kinda nervous and couldnt really comprehend what she was saying,
but im reaaallly glad that things are fine(:

only that the slides, report and assignment are due on the same day.
yea, all threee of it ><
so teach me what to say, cause i've run out of words.

today something chiamaka said, really really tickled me pink. like seriously.




HELLO dear chiamaka. see, i told you i'll post it :D

i am honestly contemplating closing this livejournal.
afterall, i have somewhere where no one knows
and well, of course i dont plan for anyone to know.
or maybe, blogging wont be an option anymore (:

warning: major rant ahead.

i suppose these few weeks. things have been changing, alot.
some, i like the idea. some just makes me quite quite disappointed.
things, people. i dont understand why some ppl can change so drastically.
one moment, they can be your best friend. yet the very next, so cold and distant.

and the best thing is, they dont even care. so tell me, why should i?
well, i just do. i dont know why. and it certainly sucks. alot.
but i've been learning to let go of certain things, certain people.
certain ppl that cant seem to care about anything/anyone but their lives right now.

guilty, anyone?

well, i've gotta say. i tried, tried talking to them more often.
but so? what's changed. absolutely nothing. and why?
cause they simply dont have time for anyone/ anything else.
and now? im tired of all these.
im tired of you and all the broken promises you said you'd never break.

oh dear people. time can be created, treasure people before they're gone.
oh please. forget it. i was going, but now im just gone (:
so yea, see you.

my 'holidays' are finally coming to an end. ( not that i want it to!)
and projects that i never knew existed, have suddenly surfaced.
and the best thing is? they're due tmr (:

i guess, too many things have been happening within this short reprieve of a break.
shant say what are the things.
but some sure made me happy, disappointed, upset, frustrated.
but that's all over now. whats left is probably dreading the start of school
with all my unfinished projects, assignments.awesome.