Having the most horrible part of my past seemingly repeating again, makes me feel like running away.
Was once not enough?
Why should I have to suffer it twice.
It's not even funny anymore.
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20 August 2010 @ 01:00 am
30 July 2010 @ 01:05 am
i have this sudden craving for cookies.
pwetty ones please. hee
someone bake me some? :)
i promise you i'll love you +++++
<3
14 July 2010 @ 01:30 am
i can't wait to find another that knows me better than i do
helloo you, i think i love you already :)
helloo you, i think i love you already :)
21 June 2010 @ 08:00 pm
hi, its been a tough first day which takes monday blues to its extremes.
had my internship briefing thingy which ended up with me and a piece of paper
and would-be attempts to ask my dad to sponsor me to go overseas for my internships.
5 months away from singapore, 5 months of independance. 5 months away from the people i love. can i take it? doubt it. also i dont think my dad would pay for me anw ):
today, i asked W for a kiss. all he did in response was walk away. how sad is that?
perhaps he's at that age. he doesnt even want to hug me anymore.
i feel old already, like old old. waaaaay old.
its like first day of school, and im so tired i dont even want to complain.
on a side note, PA is open book subject + non-examinable. soo, yay. i guess?
had my internship briefing thingy which ended up with me and a piece of paper
and would-be attempts to ask my dad to sponsor me to go overseas for my internships.
5 months away from singapore, 5 months of independance. 5 months away from the people i love. can i take it? doubt it. also i dont think my dad would pay for me anw ):
today, i asked W for a kiss. all he did in response was walk away. how sad is that?
perhaps he's at that age. he doesnt even want to hug me anymore.
i feel old already, like old old. waaaaay old.
its like first day of school, and im so tired i dont even want to complain.
on a side note, PA is open book subject + non-examinable. soo, yay. i guess?
25 April 2010 @ 05:43 pm
Today, i decided that i would make memories. instead of just wasting my life away all the time.
I read![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=88.8)
xabierr 's entry about happiness. and i guess, it struck me too then and again.
why am i unhappy, uncontented with what i have. im supposed to be happy with my life cause i have all i need to be happy, you.
but of course, being the human that i am.
i am greedy, uncontented. always wanting more. i guess i cant help it.
I read
xabierr 's entry about happiness. and i guess, it struck me too then and again. why am i unhappy, uncontented with what i have. im supposed to be happy with my life cause i have all i need to be happy, you.
but of course, being the human that i am.
i am greedy, uncontented. always wanting more. i guess i cant help it.
sometimes. looking at someone else being happy, makes me want to be happy too.
Matthew 6:19-21 "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Matthew 6:19-21 "Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal.For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.
Current Music: Lifehouse - Everything
21 April 2010 @ 08:33 pm
" We all spend our lives alone inside our heart of hearts.
However much we share with those we love, we always hold something back.
Sometimes it's a small thing, like a woman remembering a secret but long-gone love.
She tells her husband she's never loved anyone more than him, and she speaks the literal truth.
However much we share with those we love, we always hold something back.
Sometimes it's a small thing, like a woman remembering a secret but long-gone love.
She tells her husband she's never loved anyone more than him, and she speaks the literal truth.
But she has loved someone as much as him. "
- the darker side, Cody McFayden
01 April 2010 @ 09:58 pm
What happens..
its slowly wearing both sides down. slowly, but surely.
cracks are appearing. would they be fixed?
past and present scars are accumulating, will your love be enough to heal them?
both sides are afraid, afraid of losing yet.. they cant be honest with each other.
protecting her isnt going to change anything, yet telling her upfront isnt going to help her either.
does her past haunt her? of course it does, why wouldnt it?
its all up to you, to change her with all you have.
will love then still be enough to sustain a rapidly weakening relationship?
or would all be lost, another case of 'i love you, but its honestly too much for me.'?
.. when simply being in love isnt enough anymore?
when problems start to arise, countless fights and quarrels, words that dont get through, does love still triumph over all?its slowly wearing both sides down. slowly, but surely.
cracks are appearing. would they be fixed?
past and present scars are accumulating, will your love be enough to heal them?
both sides are afraid, afraid of losing yet.. they cant be honest with each other.
protecting her isnt going to change anything, yet telling her upfront isnt going to help her either.
does her past haunt her? of course it does, why wouldnt it?
its all up to you, to change her with all you have.
will love then still be enough to sustain a rapidly weakening relationship?
or would all be lost, another case of 'i love you, but its honestly too much for me.'?
22 February 2010 @ 12:42 am
3 days, 2 papers to go
absolutely feels the worst right now. doesnt help that its 2 heavy modules
despite the fact that one if them is open book.
go shuhan, you can do it!
for i have an absolutely wonderful God whose grace is sufficient for me :)
Psalm 94:19
In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.
absolutely feels the worst right now. doesnt help that its 2 heavy modules
despite the fact that one if them is open book.
go shuhan, you can do it!
for i have an absolutely wonderful God whose grace is sufficient for me :)
Psalm 94:19
In the multitude of my anxieties within me,Your comforts delight my soul.
10 February 2010 @ 02:32 am
despite me going crazy soon with all the memorising and stuff.
this makes me happy :)
its so so true! i want film cameras and cookies and kittens and mixtapes! hahah
(im totally procrastinating sleeping and studying. ah, screw it. )
goodnights world!
